And so it begins

I never read a blog until this week.  That may seem crazy in this day and age, but I spend too much time online as it is.  I would rather spend time pursuing other interests, being a better husband or father or just plain reading.  Wasting time is something I have mastered throughout the years, but I digress.

One of those "other" interests is writing.  I used to have some talent for writing, but a skill unused is a skill wasted.  Perhaps that is the story of my life, but I do not think this blog will be the story of my life.  

I want to write, but I think I have been scared to do so.  Now why is that?  I could speculate and perhaps even come to a fairly accurate conclusion, but maybe I should save that for another time and concentrate on writing.  

So what am I to write about?  A lesson is disguise sounds a bit cryptic, or at least ambiguous, so there is plenty of flexibility.  I think about certain "things" a lot, but which of those would be worthwhile to write about?  I admit that there is a strong desire to psychoanalyze myself, but starting out with that goal in mind seems - not quite right.  If it happens as I go along, so be it.  This will not be a daily journal though.  If I take that route, I will use pen and paper - maybe.

Perhaps the blog could be the launch pad for the creative writing I so badly want to undertake, but cannot bring myself to initiate.  For the record, I mainly read fiction, and fiction is where my head seems to be.  I have several ideas floating around in my head for stories/novels.  Yet I can never reduce them to words.

 I also want to publish a magazine - even if it is just one issue.  I am not sure if the magazine idea is one more of my crazy "ideas" or if it is somehow a desire to provide an outlet for writing. Maybe both; does it have to be one or the other?  I suppose not.

Okay.  I am beating around the bush, writing about nothing.  Although, I feel that at least I am exploring a few ideas and getting a taste for how this blogging business works.  Decision: I will do this for myself, and for no one else.  That being said, I have always been self conscious, and I care probably overly much what people think of me.  That is why this blog is, I hope, somewhat anonymous. Anonymity is empowering.  

Well, enough "discussion" for tonight.  Let me sleep on it.

Out.