Round Two

I have a lot of stress in my life right now.  One of the ways I deal with it is to occupy myself with something other than the troubles or issues at hand.  Sometimes that is okay, but it can make some problems even worse.  Were this damn keyboard working, I might write about it some more, but I hate retyping every other word!

And so it begins

I never read a blog until this week.  That may seem crazy in this day and age, but I spend too much time online as it is.  I would rather spend time pursuing other interests, being a better husband or father or just plain reading.  Wasting time is something I have mastered throughout the years, but I digress.

One of those "other" interests is writing.  I used to have some talent for writing, but a skill unused is a skill wasted.  Perhaps that is the story of my life, but I do not think this blog will be the story of my life.  

I want to write, but I think I have been scared to do so.  Now why is that?  I could speculate and perhaps even come to a fairly accurate conclusion, but maybe I should save that for another time and concentrate on writing.  

So what am I to write about?  A lesson is disguise sounds a bit cryptic, or at least ambiguous, so there is plenty of flexibility.  I think about certain "things" a lot, but which of those would be worthwhile to write about?  I admit that there is a strong desire to psychoanalyze myself, but starting out with that goal in mind seems - not quite right.  If it happens as I go along, so be it.  This will not be a daily journal though.  If I take that route, I will use pen and paper - maybe.

Perhaps the blog could be the launch pad for the creative writing I so badly want to undertake, but cannot bring myself to initiate.  For the record, I mainly read fiction, and fiction is where my head seems to be.  I have several ideas floating around in my head for stories/novels.  Yet I can never reduce them to words.

 I also want to publish a magazine - even if it is just one issue.  I am not sure if the magazine idea is one more of my crazy "ideas" or if it is somehow a desire to provide an outlet for writing. Maybe both; does it have to be one or the other?  I suppose not.

Okay.  I am beating around the bush, writing about nothing.  Although, I feel that at least I am exploring a few ideas and getting a taste for how this blogging business works.  Decision: I will do this for myself, and for no one else.  That being said, I have always been self conscious, and I care probably overly much what people think of me.  That is why this blog is, I hope, somewhat anonymous. Anonymity is empowering.  

Well, enough "discussion" for tonight.  Let me sleep on it.

Out.